The time right now sld be a sleeping time but yet i m here wide awake doing nth, staring into space allowing my tears to drop. Doesn't even know when will it stop dropping down. The feeling is so terrible.
All i ever wish is to stay happy, yes i am happy but i can't even fulfilled a simple thing that is sleep. I can't get into sleep. Why is sleeping so hard for me when i m alone? I know i am not alone at all. But i do feel lonliness why? I have all my friends, sweeties and my love all by my side. What else am i asking for?
At the past when i have nth, why didn't i feel sleepless night but now when i have almost everything. Happiness are all by my side and yet sleepless night.
I have to overcome everything, i am going to make full use of the time when my baby boi is in camp. I HAVE DETERMINATION AND I MUST DO IT!!!!!!! Nth is impossible when i have the faith and determination.
Baby: I know u are worried for me that how long can i take it but i promise u no matter how hard it going to be i am going to overcome. For now all i will do is to look forward for ur book out on x'mas eve and it's also our 1 yr 3months. I m praying for a miracle ( onli me and my precious know wad i m praying for).
